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i'm not going to lie. today i am depressed. me and dustin are not even in a relationship right now, we never get to be together, just us two. we aren't allowed to be 'alone.' so there's no where for us to be but at my house with my family. problem is my little brother. i love him and all, but he is on my last nerve. he's in love with my boyfriend. not like gay love, like idolizing thinks he's cool love. that's good right? that my siblings like him, i know..i know..but it's getting ridiculous. i don't get to talk to dustin because little brothers always talking his ear off. it is seriously out of hand. i'm not even stretching the truth when i say we are never without edward. it's getting really hard because i feel like i can't even tell dustin anything cause little brother's always around. i'm depressed. i'm pissed. did i mention i was gone for four days, got home dustin left, i'm really busy this week, i leave saturday and am gone for two days, another really busy week, then i leave for nine days. this isn't fazing dustin at all. maybe he doesn't love me right now?? i don't know. i'm too depressed to function.

Current Location: living room
Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: a fine frenzy